Cup of Java

Put another notch on the belt of rejection. I'm so tired of this. Yesterday I heard back about the job and was told that it had come down to me and another person, and they went with the other one because they had more experience. I'm so tired of hearing that. And of course they told me that they really liked my stuff and that they'd like to keep me in mind in case of freelance work. I've heard that one before. Numerous times. The worst part of the whole thing is that it just makes me feel like I wasted the last month or whatever going for all those long interviews. I'd love to send them a bill for my time they wasted. But, I really can't think like that. Or I shouldn't. It's just so fucking frustrating. I want to scream and cry and rip out my hair. This also means that my job hunting that I had been slacking on while going through the interview process needs to be put back on track. After finding out their decision, I spent most of yesterday sifting through my masses of papers with contacts for most of the agencies in the area. I think I'm going to have to get my butt in gear and get going on the self-promo piece I've been working on in my head and get it sent to people, along with emails and other things.
This whole thing really sucks.